This is the first year that I have solely been self employed and it has been a rough year and quite a challenge. I have never been unhappier in my life. The Dangerous Lee Experiment didn’t take off like I thought it would, but things didn’t get really bad until the Fall and I began to question my choice to leave behind my part time job with Wellness AIDS Services, though I did stay on as a contracted worker. I don’t necessarily regret my decision because I love being free and independent and let’s face it; no one else can be my boss. I have also never been so poor, so poor that I have had to sell precious pieces of jewelry, but I am rich in other ways that I feel are more important than money. I can say that now but I didn’t feel that way before. As I type this, I live at the poverty level with the confidence that I will not always be here. I will become self sufficient by my own laurels.
In March, I found out who my real father is thanks to a DNA test. I grew up thinking that another man was my father. The man who I thought was my father was a deadbeat and my first time seeing him was when he was on his deathbed. After his death I also met people that I thought were my family, including two brothers and a sister. Having to inform these people that I am not their kin was difficult, but I am happy and grateful to know who my real father is and I am also very happy that he’s alive so we can build a relationship. I have a ton of new family members (some I have known since I was a child) including two younger sisters and an older brother. Finding this out in my 30’s, when I could have clearly known this from birth (long story that I will share one day), has caused some emotional and mental stress on myself, my mother, and my daughter, but I feel that a part of my life has come full circle and I love that life is always full of surprises. PS: My father is a cool dude and I remain in contact, via social media, with the brothers and sister that aren’t connected to me by blood, but by a crazy circumstance.
The highest points of 2012 would have to be – being selected as Vibe’s Vixen of the Day, being featured on The TODAY Show, and having Demi Lovato tweet in response to a story that appeared on my website. All three of these events made me feel like the work I am doing is starting to become noticed which is very validating. Even if no one else is, I am proud of myself and quite frankly I shock myself sometimes at the things I am able to accomplish, but I work my ass off for my brand, so often I feel like I should be more successful, but I also understand how the game is played and I know I am not fully equipped to be where I want to be just yet. I am in a situation in life where I gotta do things the extra hard way to get where I want to be. The more I accomplish as a sole entity, the more I appreciate my struggle and those like me. I am an impatient woman living a journey that moves a lot slower than I’d like, but I don’t have control of that. I’ve come to the conclusion that I am creating the foundation for my daughter and her children to build on. By the time the Dangerous Lee brand becomes a household name I may be an old woman, but I’m alright with that.
Speaking of my daughter, Senia has her own website now; simplysenia.com. Senia is not new to the game as she has appeared on my radio show and also has her own You Tube channel. Her website is a way for me to highlight her accomplishments and to provide her with some pretty cool experiences as she grows up to become a woman. She is not forced to be involved with the website but I always ask for her input and suggestions because it is her website. She owns it. I essentially work for her. Ain’t that something? However, this is a major part of my foundation building. Hopefully by the time she’s an adult her website and mine will be extremely profitable and she will want to take over so I can retire even though her goal is to be a scientist ;)
I never make resolutions because I generally think they’re stupid, but in 2013 I have a few. I will get in better shape and lose weight. I am getting huge! I don’t like how I feel or what I see when I look in the mirror or hop on the scale, so the only way to change that is to change the way I eat and work out more. Lawd help me! I will also be recycling all paper products in my home and buying reusable grocery bags for shopping because plastic bags are horrible for the planet and ultimately our health. I suggest you stop using them too. Envirosax makes some funky reusable shopping bags at a very reasonable price.
One of the new projects I am working on is called 365 Days of Dangermas. It’s a project that I hope will help me to be more optimistic by making every day in 2013 special. For this project I will be leaving my Christmas tree up all year (minus the decorations) and adding a new decoration or unique item to it daily and highlighting it by writing a blog here at DangerousLee.Biz. Writing daily will be a huge challenge because I have become a lazy writer since becoming a full time web publisher, but I know I need to get my writing chops back if I am ever going to get serious about writing and publishing my second book. You’re welcome to contribute items to the Dangermas project by sending items to: Dangerous Lee, PO Box 7317, Flint, MI 48507.
Lastly, a HUGE thank you for your continued support. If you really like any of the content at DangerousLee.Biz please share it with others. A simple daily visit to this website helps to pay the bills around here! Also, if you or anyone you know is looking for an internship, please consider becoming a Danger Baby!
Wait! I can’t forget Mary Jane. If it weren’t for her I would be certified NUTS! Hold up, I am already….never mind.
Happy New Year and Keep it Dangerous!